This is me

So let’s talk about me…

And there we have the first problem: talking about myself. Really not good at that. Not at all, but let’s try.

So I’m a fangirl with all the basic girl-struggles: stupid friends, mood-changes, addictions and all of the other shit. In brief: tough life.

My fanlife started when I first read Harry Potter. It’s not that I had not read any nice stories before, but this one was different. I have always been a bookworm and I’m afraid that I will always be. I can’t live a day without reading and I can’t imagine what life would be like without them, but let’s not think about that horrific idea 😉

So after Harry Potter things got worse. In the beginning it was just a bit of reading when I had time, but now when I touch a book I can’t stop reading until I my eyes get too tired. That’s the reason why I never read before doing my homework.

I think my bookaddiction is only getting worse because of my struggles with life. I don’t have any serious issues such as cutting myself or having an eating disorder, but my thoughts can sometimes ruin everything. When I’m really happy and someone says just one little negative thing I will start thinking about that and I will drag myself into some negative thoughtspin.

Okay now you’ll probably think I can’t be happy for long. That’s not true, luckily. And if I do have a period of too much negativity I find rest and peace in my faith. I believe in God for about 4 years now and it really helped me. When I am sad or afraid I pray or I sing and it calmes me because then I realise that I am never alone and whatever will happen it won’t be the end of the world.

My friends often describe me as loyal and reliable (yes I forced myself to say something good about myself). Those characteristics are also really important to me. There is no way to get me angrier then by lying or not keeping a secret. A thing I’m not good at is being social. Not like I can’t have a conversation with someone I don’t know, but I’m really bad at making friends. I don’t trust people really quick and I’m really shy.

So now you know who I am 🙂


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